There is work to be done.
First, there is work to be done within myself. I feel like I have allowed myself to fall into a deep slumber, coaxed by the pain of living and facilitated by the refusal to accept realities that I did not want to accept. In doing so, in not accepting, I was not experiencing. I was, in essence, asleep. This is what happens when you run away from reality. You fall asleep. The longer you run, the deeper the sleep and the harder it becomes to awaken. I am groggy, but I am waking up again. Moment by moment I breathe, and in doing so I accept. Slowing down is hard, because dreams pass by so quickly. When we are awake, time passes slowly. This is the truth.
Secondly, there is work to be done in the world. There is beauty to be acknowledge - for if beauty is not acknowledged, is it still beautiful? Perhaps, but by acknowledging beauty in the world and the people around us, we awaken the realization of beauty within themselves. This is how it works, this is what it means to be human. We can also awaken jealousy, fear and envy in others. Let us not choose this path as this is the path of deep sleep. Let us choose the awakened and conscious path, let us find beauty.
I begin by listening to myself and practicing yoga and meditation. Meditation is necessary. One must meditate. Without meditation there is no seeing. If you cannot see the truth within yourself, you cannot awaken the truth in others. So you must meditate. It is a joy. If you do not find it joyful, then you must slow down. Slow down and breathe. Practice this. This is meditation. See? It is a trick. People think it is hard, long and boring. But it is not! They are asleep and cannot see that their view of meditation is the view they have of their own lives and of themselves. If you love yourself and are at peace with yourself, then our meditation is full of love and peace, for yourself and others. But if when you meditate you are bored, unhappy and angry, this too is a reflection of yourself. If you are angry then you are moving too fast. Slow down. It may take some time, but you will notice that there is more to you than anger, depression and sadness. Just start by breathing. Start by taking it slow.
I know these things because I have experienced them. I am not greater than you at meditation, or sitting quietly, or finding inner happiness. There is no better or worse. All any of us can do is, in every moment, listen and act slowly, with intention. As soon as I forget to act with intention, then I am the same as you. As soon as you act, for even one second, with intention, then you are me. And vice versa.
With this mindset you will find that you are truly able to live in the world and be productive. Let us help others. There is no greater gift. We will be taken care of along the way. For there is truly no other way.
DO A REMIX OF THIS SONG!
What is your favorite DAW?
I like Logic. But it really tuckers my old lil’ MacBook Pro out. So, I’m trying Ableton Live out. I’ve got the basics down, but I’m tryin’ to learn how to get a good audio recording out of it. First on the list is figuring out how to get a nice warm sounding recording of my Simon Patrick acoustic guitar. I’ll post something here after I accomplish that feat.
Cover song I learned today: Elliot Smith “Sweet Adeline”
My only resolution this year is to become a morning person.
My whole life has been lived as a night owl. That’s 28 years of waking up between 10 and 11:30am. I love staying up late, working on creative projects, and sleeping waaay past dawn.
But my life is different now. I’m a student, and I have early classes to attend. And, my love for Yoga has only grown over the years. The Ashtanga method traditionally calls for an early practice. This has always been a struggle for me.
But my love for the early morning routine is slowly beating out my night owl personality. It’s fitting that I should let that go. Waking up late is a part of my old party life - where I’d stay out late nights, ever night, drinking too much and sleeping with strangers. While I gave up those naughty habits over four years ago, waking up at a reasonable hour has been a habit that has continued to elude me.
So I figured, if I only had one resolution this year, instead of a list of ten or more, I would be more apt to follow through. Therefore, I’m committed to waking up before 8am and practicing Yoga six days a week.
My teacher told me today that if I practice backbends every day for 10 years, then I’ll be flexible to bring my feet closer together. 10 years! And that’s practicing six days a week (skipping moon days of course).
The world seems to have rewarded my newfound committment to my practice: my teacher gave me the rest of the primary series today. So I’m now practicing the entire series. It’s a beautiful feeling. The postures build on each other, one after the next, until by the end of the practice you feel that every latent unused muscle has been used, stretched, and strenghtened.
I feel beautiful, and all I did was let go for a few hours in the early morning. Funny how long it takes before I relinquish control and let the world come to me, instead of chasing down the world.
I’m once again trying to get some videos and blogs up with some regularity. We’ll see how it goes.
I think I’m afraid of posting a lot here, because it’s kind of out there forever after that. Sure, I can delete posts (if I go back and sort through them), but after awhile, if you post a lot, there’s so many to sort through that it’s sort of daunting.
But I guess that’s part of loving yourself. Knowing that you’re human, that you’re not perfect, but you’re no more or less human than anyone else.
I think that strength comes not from hiding your mistakes, but being honest about them, owning them, and having the courage to walk through life living a little bit differently with the knowledge you’ve acquired.
So here it goes, my attempt at being a yogini, in the real world, doing real-life things, just like you. Only at the end of my day I collapse on my mat, do a downward facing dog and say thank you to my creator, whatever s/he may be, ever was, or may become.